Drowning in torment

No feelings...
lost...
one World...
to which not...
belong...
desolate...
creating illusions...
losing dreams...
living of failures ...
fake smiles...
masks used ...
friends...
pure illusion?...
feeling alone...
fixed chains...
holding me...
in memories...
cutting my wings...
without acceptance...
denial of the world...
rejection...
I'm lost...
drowning in darkness...
slowly sinking...
without outputs...
sweet torment...
pain ...
agony...
weighing in at my body...
sinking...
stuck in the dark...
some hand?...
no one comes...
so far...
for a friend...
I'm lost...
without salvation...
arrested in me...
died for myself...
I'm here...
loneliness...
my Sweet World...
lost on me...