Punishment of the world called I

Fights
disagreement...
confusion...
crises of life...
discouragement...
death wish...
attempts in vain...
I want to see God soon ...
but why does not God want to see me?...
error...
sin...
negativism...
jumbled thoughts...
the mind becomes...
a black hole denial...
sucking out all the error...
of everything and everyone...
holding me in cages...
of moments...
Insured by chains...
sinking in a sea...
of darkness...
I am in pain...
God return my...
salvation...
words...
perdition...
loneliness...
friends, visits of the world...
partners for life...
nightmares...
lies...
fights...
intrigues...
bruises...
because I do not...
hard on friendships?...
me being me...
error...
I'm not the only one in the world...
the world is not mine...
but your pain seems...
all my...
but I'm just...
one more in the world...
from this chaotic place...
I want to find friends...
that at least they know...
accept me...
and I hope one day...
I know at least...
how to be friend...
not a Judas...
as I always am...
...
..
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