Thoughts of an empty shell...

On a...
world...
living forcibly...
surviving...
echoing ideas...
how to get rid of chains...
what to do...
precious gift...
life...
a blessing or a burden...
nightmares...
where to go...
what to do...
I'm lost in time...
how to proceed...
just aging...
nothing changing...
only wrinkles of the age being born...
stopped...
no paths to go...
I lose myself...
drowning in regrets...
empty I become...
hollow inside only to the sound of the wind...
a heartless body...
an empty shell that there is much to say...
but after we die...
words become just noises...
deafening noises...
that everyone ignores...
poor kid...
with lots to say...
becomes mute in life...
and after his death...
becomes a huge megaphone...
"Nothing changes, nothing is different,
beautiful gift is life,
compel you to survive,
fight and grow,
but never helping at all,
always making you lose,
and to believe that tomorrow will be better... "
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Inquiries...

Why am I negative?...
what do I want from myself?...
should I expect something to change by myself or by myself?...
I just want attention?...
I'm in need perhaps...
what does all this help me to be like?...
what I am is what I should be?...
what I must be is what I want?...
was the negativity born in me or grew up because I wanted to...
I'm a mistake?...
I am right? Or wrong?...
why I am as I am?...
why can not I change who I am?...
why do not people change their response?...
why everything is the same...
why do I have to be different?...
I am different?...
why do I think different?...
I have problems?...
I am a problem?...
am I alone or do I feel alone?...
why do I feel lonely if I have everything?...
why everything seems nothing...
why everything fits but me?...
why I being me is wrong? or right?...
why?...
why?...
why do I want to live?...
why die...
why do you want to disappear?...
why would you want to appear?...
for what?...
why everything?...
why I?...
why I...
why I do not know how to do things...
why I do not understand things...
why basic things of the human I do not understand?...
why me...
why me.......
WHY ME...
WHY ☹...
I do not need to know what I already know...
see more than can...
know more than you think...
create failed theories, but certain...
find it incorrect...
live with the error...
become part of it...
join pieces of each...
become one...
for what of the things?...
why of them?...
why of everything...
why nothing?...
everything equals nothing...
nothing does not exist...
everything never existed...
errors and more errors...
failures...
uncertainties...
red code...
the world claps...
we've been dead for a long time...
looking for answers...
I observe beyond what I see...
simple answers arise in the mind...
complex answers take my mouth...
expressing becomes useless...
different thoughts...
different lives...
experiences...
everything becomes a plunger...
everything becomes difficult...
I'm trying to understand the world...
but I can not answer...
without signal with the communication with the others...
I lose myself in thoughts...
I alone feel far from the heat...
no one to hear me...
mute I will become...
gestures are no longer accurate...
I'm lost, I'm drowning...
save me...

Standards...

Wishes...
choices...
opposite paths...
difference...
follow a pattern...
created by society...
said as "wishes"...
God's...
but you hardly know...
what are wishes...
of mere mortals...
deified by all...
preventing freedom...
that we won...
by standards...
called "correct"...
words spoken...
barriers created...
fears appear...
lost courage...
we accept the error...
we deny the correct...
not being able to...
I break this taboo...
different dominates...
my body...
that's me...
open freedom...
broken barriers...
obstacles appear...
but I'm still standing...
nobody will knock me over...
follow my path...
free as it was meant to be...
that's me...
making me really happy...
not a fake smile...
but a real...
true friends...
they accept who we are...
I do not accept third opinions...
what others think...
it's not important...
and yes what...
I think it's true...
satisfaction should not...
this is freedom...
this is my life...
free as a bird...
being the "weird"...
but the weird...
without fears...
of an invented pattern...
for mere mortals....
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Note: Do not let your ideals be destroyed by meaningless and futile opinions, you can do what you want, be what you want, wear what you want, satisfaction we owe no one and if someone thinks bad, thank opinion and remain you, you are the important one, the you that you created and not the one that the society wants to create to be only one more like them, be great, be happy and above all, be FREE.